Overthinking
A friend told me the other day to stop over thinking
"HA HA HA HA"
That’s like telling a girl not to put on makeup before going
out, teenage boy to not think about sex, or a Korean to stop playing League of
Legends.
Nah but seriously, I've got 99 problems and around 83.6 of them are completely made up scenarios in my head that I'm stressing about for absolutely no logical reason...
Paralysis of Analysis
Over thinking is the absolute worst. It leaves your mind with a clutter of negative thought that slowly eat away at you. It lingers and thrives on the worries and doubts that harbor in your mind. Mine has come to a point where my minds is just JHSJDHSF.
I, for one, care way too much about the opinions that others have of me. I feel as though that my self-worth is dependent by others judgement. You could compare my life to a circus attraction, in which I must always find new ways to entertain or please in order to get a round of applause, even for just a little while.
Sometimes I just sit here and wonder why I'm being 'seen-zonded'. My thought process is as follows:
> Is it because I'm not important enough, or are you doing something?
>But if you are doing something you should be done by now and chuck me a nude reply.
>But you haven't.
>SO I SUSPECT I AM NOT WORTHY OF A REPLY.
>I'll even accept a "K" at this point.
>THROW ME A BONE.
>Maybe I should send a message!
>But that would mean I would be sending two messages in a row.
>That would make me seem desperate??.
>but i am desperate.
>NO! If she wants to talk to me, she will talk to me.
>But if she doesn't then she doesnt. I will let her decide.
> no convo ever again (UNLESS THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM ME)
And that is how I lose touch with friends....
P.S. Kirsten is a bitch
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Overthinking
A friend told me the other day to stop over thinking
"HA HA HA HA"
That’s like telling a girl not to put on makeup before going
out, teenage boy to not think about sex, or a Korean to stop playing League of
Legends.
Nah but seriously, I've got 99 problems and around 83.6 of them are completely made up scenarios in my head that I'm stressing about for absolutely no logical reason...
Paralysis of Analysis
Over thinking is the absolute worst. It leaves your mind with a clutter of negative thought that slowly eat away at you. It lingers and thrives on the worries and doubts that harbor in your mind. Mine has come to a point where my minds is just JHSJDHSF.
I, for one, care way too much about the opinions that others have of me. I feel as though that my self-worth is dependent by others judgement. You could compare my life to a circus attraction, in which I must always find new ways to entertain or please in order to get a round of applause, even for just a little while.
Sometimes I just sit here and wonder why I'm being 'seen-zonded'. My thought process is as follows:
> Is it because I'm not important enough, or are you doing something?
>But if you are doing something you should be done by now and chuck me a nude reply.
>But you haven't.
>SO I SUSPECT I AM NOT WORTHY OF A REPLY.
>I'll even accept a "K" at this point.
>THROW ME A BONE.
>Maybe I should send a message!
>But that would mean I would be sending two messages in a row.
>That would make me seem desperate??.
>but i am desperate.
>NO! If she wants to talk to me, she will talk to me.
>But if she doesn't then she doesnt. I will let her decide.
> no convo ever again (UNLESS THEY NEED SOMETHING FROM ME)
And that is how I lose touch with friends....
P.S. Kirsten is a bitch
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Controler
I am Me. And it won't change.
[ kneel down to the floor, cuz the Loyal Controler is comiiing ]
Hey guys. I'm the Royal Controler in this imaginary world. My name's bening [ or you can call me PERIOD ].
I'm 93452723482318 years old and yet i look like a
toddler 9 year old.
My hometown is Mars, but apparently i'm now in Atlantis, on the way to Bandung, Indonesia. Oh, of COURSE i'm Indonesian.
Actually, I'm born in the 18th of April, but all of a sudden i forgot in what year i was born, so.. yeah.
I DON'T like studying, because it's boring. I HATE wrecked-complicated templates, and.. slow internet. I SUPREMELY HATE worms, because they're slimy and disgusting =.=
BUUU~T i love LOT'S of things too. Example?
PIZZA (definitely), MUSIIIC (awfully in love), BLOGGING (awesomely married), EDITING TEMPLATES (growing old together), SOCIAL (supremely will be dead together), GOD (will be in my heart forever).
Anyways, I'm just plain Me. Not gonna change. Oh, one more thing:
Copycats, Hackers, Spammers, Rippers make me famous.
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